Thursday, May 13, 2010

Cute wishes....


Cleaning, Cleaning and Cleaning. Its really weird.. when u clean, you become dirty.... that's the beauty of the activity.

Last week after a week full of relaxation i was eagerly waiting for the weekend (of course to relax as i got tired during the week relaxing). It was one of those beautiful Saturday morning.. i got up with the idea that i am going to do nothing, for the day.. i was so happy it was going to be my lazy day. But as all of you know.. mummy's always have this extra-ordinary ability of making you switch gears. Just few hours into the day, i walked into my room with full determination and zeal. I decided to embark into the venture of cleaning the drawers in my table.. (yes you are right i am referring to that small table next to my bed)

You may ask me, Ramya for cleaning two drawers did you have to give one para build up.. but guys it took me close to four hours before i victoriously emerged out of the cleaning (of course dirty..)

It was a beautiful feeling though.. as i was cleaning came across my LKG to 12th Std mark sheet... it was an experience to go through them. There was a time when it meant so much... so many sleepless nights, tensed, anxious moments... and last week when i had the report cards in my hand... it was a euphoric feeling, i felt jubilant, ecstatic, delighted, triumphant, elated... i felt so good about myself from a tiny toddler to a Chartered Accountant.. what a journey!!! I have never felt more proud of myself..
As i unearthed (its a restricted area nobody in the family is allowed to touch it) so many more memories came gushing out.. so many cards.. so many wishes... each one of them...so precious, so unique, so loving from people who are very close to my heart.. i am at loss of words to describe how much it all means to me today. Came across several wishes.. this one stood out... so just thought of sharing it with you guys. Here we go....

May God
Grant you Always....
A sunbeam to warm you,
A moonbeam to charm you,
A sheltering angel so nothing can harm you,
Laughter to cheer you,
Faithful friends near you,
and whenever you pray heaven to hear you....

I wish the same for all of you.... :)

What a way to end the week and that's how my Saturday ended. With a close up smile all through the evening... smiling to myself.. feeling good about everything and everybody around me. and here i go towards another weekend.. looking forward to and also wanting to be lazy...lets see if mom's talent is going to work this weekend and if yes what is it that i am going to discover..

Happy weekend.... :)

Friday, May 7, 2010

Oh!!! I am growing....

There is so much to say, so much to write, thoughts cloud my mind, but words fail to express.
My heart cries aloud, but the mind refuses to budge, oh how am i caught in between this tuff dual.
Yet i chose to listen to my heart, and here i try to pour it out.
Time they say heals everything...time they say speeds across everything.... and it is this time that has changed so many things and yes my life is no exception...
It just seems like yesterday, i packed my bags to move towards a new dream, towards a rising horizon, towards a new career.
Away from loved ones. Away not knowing what it meant to be away. Not knowing what to expect, what to accept.. was the journey scary u would ask me..
Not just scary it was terrible i would say. Alone and lonely, scared to death (you know me brave face in the forefront), depressed yet cheerful, frightened yet optimistic.. yes that was me..something within and something outside..
It was different, difficult and stressful and slowing things seemed to change...the fog seemed to clear and i found a lot. My eyes opened to all the wonderful people around me, to all the good things that was happening to me, all the heart warming beautiful moments i experienced.. that i got to cherish for life time. So may good buddies.... so many good friends and so many good people.. i never knew relationships could mean so much. i experienced a depth i have never felt before, a blind love towards life the way i have never felt before....it is beautiful when you see world with a different eye. The journey that started into the unknown with just one faith and belief carried me through and here i take another decision and in a whisker... just at the wink of an eye my life is taking a whole new turn..a whole new meaning ..a new perspective.

It may be stupid to hear it from me, but the fact is... it is still sinking in... its slowly seeping in... the fact and the thought that i am growing.... my loved ones are growing.... a new generation is coming in.....
It has hits me hard..each time i see that beard on my brother’s face..each time i hear my kid sister taking about collage..my kid brother negotiating with his mom...toddlers moving into high school... things are changing... growing around you and me.

Just stopped by to tell all of you that i love you and thanks for being there all along... supporting me encouraging me.... i still feel like a kid.... i don’t want to acknowledge that i am growing.. but the fact remains.... and it is still sinking in......
 
Oh!!! i am growing.. :)